I have a problem, and Its eating up whole. I find it hard to concentrate on the things I'm supposed to.

I've been questioning myself a lot lately, losing confidence in my own self, my choices, my mind and my own sanity Its something inconceivable, I suppose.. ..but it is happening. I don't know how, why or when it happened, I'm just seeing myself dwindling down and getting devoured and being consumed by the complex emotions and situations. I need help, but I don't feel welcome anywhere, not anymore. I'm afraid. I'm tired and I'm scared of being constantly lost in my own mind. I'm Confused. I'm in Pain. 

One day I might not be able to come back from the deep end. I feel like i dont have the strength to fight back anymore, and when I break.... There is not turning back.. 

...not that i dont want to come back.... its hard... extremely difficult...

 I keep on telling myself "I'll be alright. One day, Someday... but NOT TODAY." But once darkness has settled in, Its hard to see the light.... I feel Alone. blind. i don't know where to go... aimlessly wandering in the dark.....

not today? i asked myself. tomorrow? ... NO. i dont know.. because I feel so lost.

I just.... I need a home ....I need a place to rest and a person to rest with..

I need help... ..a place.. anywhere I can go to... 

..please take care of me. ..someone who understands..... who'll just let me be... simply me...

A home.... a place i can rest in.... a person i can rest with....

i need help....... a place i can go to....

someone.... i'll take anyone..

please..