last night was too painful. 

symptoms are getting worse, if the other night I had chest pains and hyperventillations and last week I had bad back aches, last night was worse, I was having nausea and vomiting all night along with chest pains and lack of oxygen, wasn't able to sleep at all.

At some point I was wide awake but thought I was dreaming. The increased brain pressure's giving me a head ache and the brain pressure increase from vomiting is blurring my vision and some visual disturbances.

know what I need? - aside from oxygen tank by my bed side and regular medications? Someone who'll be there for me, take care of me, pat my back while I'm vomiting my brains out, hug me, kiss me and tell me everything's gonna be okay, calm me down while hyperventillating and tell me He's there and I don't need to be afraid of my recurring condition.

Becasue I honestly am scared out of my wits right now.

Or maybe "incredibly overwhemled" is the right term?

a hug and a kiss is what I need.

please take care of me?